grace.

 

i'm not doing any of this gracefully. marriage. parenting. following God. today i am quite aware of the inevitable struggle inside me to be more--to be better-- than what i am on the outside, to deliver more that is positive instead of spewing negativity. i am awfully human today.

and then you show up. i am grateful that you are willing to listen quietly while i unload, that you don't offer a way to fix it, but instead you really hear me and then do what needs to be done to remedy the situation as best we can.

you take bigger boy to the park and out to dinner because he needs some time with you. and he needs some time away from mommy and littler boy who is at the moment needing the better part of mommy's time.

you--even with your own burdens of work and school and trying to fit it all in--you come to my rescue when i am throwing in the towel. 

and maybe i'm not doing any of this gracefully. but you love me anyway. and that, to me, shows me a glimpse of what God does for me all the time. who He IS. unconditionally loving me...even when i mess up. even when i don't get it. even when i yell and scream and cry and look ridiculous. 

so thank you for your love and for the grace you extend to me. it matters. it really does. it makes a divine difference in who i am and in who i will become. you doing this for me extends tangible evidence of God working in our lives. and i am grateful.

 

Comments

[Marmie]

Grace is amazing.... and so are you and Chris. I am so grateful (and so inspired) by the way you work together and let God work through you.

[amy]

thanks, mom :)

[Erin]

so sweet to see a glimpse of your relationship with Chris. love this Amy!